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Before My Actual Heart Breaks

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An unforgettable love story with the energy of Derry Girls and the intensity of The Ferryman

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‘If I could go back to being sixteen again, I’d do things differently.'

'Everyone over the age of forty feels like that, you total gom,' says my best friend Lizzie Magee.

When she was young Mary Rattigan wanted to fly. She was going to take off like an angel from heaven and leave the muck and madness of troubled Northern Ireland behind. Nothing but the Land of Happy Ever After would do for her.

But as a Catholic girl with a B.I.T.C.H. for a Mammy and a silent Daddy, things did not go as she and Lizzie Magee had planned.

Now, five children, twenty-five years, an end to the bombs and bullets, enough whisky to sink a ship and endless wakes and sandwich teas later, Mary’s alone. She’s learned plenty of hard lessons and missed a hundred steps towards the life she'd always hoped for.

Will she finally find the courage to ask for the love she deserves? Or is it too late?

© Tish Delaney 2020 (P) Penguin Audio 2020

Critics Review

This is in many ways a familiar story but it is told in such a fresh, entertaining, funny and moving way, it felt like I was reading something brand new.

Roddy Doyle

Two pages into this book you know you’ve unlocked something special . . . the book is brightened up plenty by sunshine characters and the magnificence of Tyrone nature . . . Tish knows what she’s talking about.

Irish Examiner

A really lovely book. I loved reading it.

Mariella Frostrup

Delaney’s writing is a beautiful wave flowing lyrically through the life of Mary Rattigan. A touching tale of how one woman survives a tough beginning to eventually end up exactly where her heart belongs.

Anne Griffin author of WHEN ALL IS SAID

I did not expect this debut to turn into the most exquisite love story, but it did, and I was besotted.

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Author Tish Delaney
Narrator Saoirse-Monica Jackson
Duration 11 hours and 2 minutes
Release Date
ISBN 9781473579682
Format Audiobook
Publisher Random House
Genre Family life fiction, Narrative theme: Love and relationships, Narrative theme: Sense of place
Availability AU, GB, IE

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