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Chopping Onions on My Heart

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Samantha’s mother tongue is dying out. An urgent need to find out more becomes an expansive investigation into how to keep hold of her culture – and when to let it go

The daughter of Iraqi Jewish refugees, Samantha grew up surrounded by the noisy, vivid, hot sounds of Judeo-Iraqi Arabic. A language that’s now on the verge of extinction.

The realisation that she won’t be able to tell her son he’s ‘living in the days of the aubergines’ or ‘chopping onions on my heart’ opens the floodgates. The questions keep coming. How can she pass on the stories without passing on the trauma of displacement? Will her son ever love mango pickle?

In her search for answers Samantha encounters demon bowls, the perils of kohl and the unexpected joys of fusion food. Her journey transports us from the clamour of Noah’s Ark to the calm of the British Museum, from the Oxford School of Rare Jewish Languages to the banks of the River Tigris. As Samantha considers what we lose and keep, she also asks what we might need to let go of to preserve our culture and ourselves.

This is a life-affirming memoir about resilience and repair, and the healing power of dancing to our ancestors’ music, cooking up their recipes and sharing their stories.

'I couldn’t put it down’ RUKMINI IYER
‘I loved this book so much... Think: The Body Keeps the Score in practice not theory’ ELLA RISBRIDGER
‘A moving and resonant lament for the past but also a thought-provoking siren call for the future' ANNE SEBBA
'Urgent, alive, propulsive. I adored it' MARINA BENJAMIN

© Samantha Ellis 2025 (P) Penguin Audio 2025

Critics Review

Ellis’s book is a useful reminder that Jewish generational trauma is not confined to the descendants of those who survived the Holocaust. In fact, given the ubiquity of refugees in the modern world, Chopping Onions on My Heart’s aching sense of loss has a truly global resonance
Guardian
An optimistic and often wryly funny book... a gift to the future, rich with insights about the nature of belonging that are not limited to one community but matter to all of us
Observer
I am amazed at the breadth and range of Samantha Ellis’s knowledge and insights, and love the endearing and humorous way she shares information that is tragic and frightening as well as heart-warming and full of hope
CLAUDIA RODEN
An engaging mix of harrowing history, earnest reflection, recipes, common sense, love, humour and life
Literary Review
As an Iraqi Jew, reading Chopping Onions on My Heart felt like being seen: the entire book felt like a fierce, honest, and profoundly comforting hug
Yad Mizrah
Easily my non-fiction book of the year
RUKMINI IYER, author of The Roasting Tin
I loved this book so much. It's a heart-opener and an eye-opener, an invitation to understand our world better. Think: The Body Keeps the Score in practice not theory
ELLA RISBRIDGER, author of Midnight Chicken
A profound meditation on loss and the importance of language as a means of remembering... Thoroughly recommended
ANNE SEBBA, author of The Women's Orchestra of Auschwitz
A beautiful tale of painful cultural loss, delicious food, rich history; and the bittersweet grief that only the perfect recipe can solve. A truly enlightening book that will leave you hungry yet satisfied
CARIAD LLOYD, author of You Are Not Alone
A wonderfully immersive and sensitive meditation on belonging and identity
VIV GROSKOP, author of How to Own the Room

User Reviews

Book 5.0
Narration 5.0
Author Samantha Ellis
Narrator Samantha Ellis
Duration 7 hours and 29 minutes
Release Date
ISBN 9781529968514
Format Audiobook
Publisher Random House
Genre Cultural studies: customs and traditions, Language: history and general works, Memoirs, Social and cultural history
Availability AU, GB, IE
Rating
5.0 (1 review)
Narration
5.0 (1 review)

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