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If Ever I Fall

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'You will need plenty of tissues for this heart-breaking tale' The Sun

'An exceptional book. I devoured it in a couple of sittings' Reader review ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐

Is holding on harder than letting go?

Dan’s life has fallen apart at the seams. He’s lost his house, his job is on the line, and now he’s going to lose his family too. All he’s ever wanted is to keep them together, but is everything beyond repair?

Maria is drowning in grief. She spends her days writing letters that will never be answered. Nights are spent trying to hold terrible memories at bay, to escape the pain that threatens to engulf her.

Jack wakes up confused and alone. He doesn’t know who he is, how he got there, or why he finds himself on a deserted clifftop, but will piecing together the past leave him a broken man?

In the face of real tragedy, can these three people find a way to reconcile their past with a new future? And is love enough to carry them through?

Readers can't get enough of If Ever I Fall:

'Exceptionally beautiful, emotionally charged and inspirational’ Miranda Dickinson, Sunday Times bestseller

‘A wonderfully told tale of devastation, grief and ultimately hope’ Kathryn Hughes, bestselling author of The Letter and The Secret

‘When I wasn't actually reading this book, I found myself thinking constantly about it. Real. Emotional. Powerful. A must-read for anyone who loves to lose themselves completely in a book.’ Claudia Carroll

'Wow! What a book. I've been gripped from the start!' Reader review ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐

'The way S.D Robertson writes is so compelling and gripping. I literally couldn't put this book down' Reader review ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐

'Brilliant! An exceptional book, well written with truly believable characters. I went through a whole range of emotions and devoured it in a couple of sittings' Reader review ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐

'I loved this book. It was difficult to put down. A gripping and touching story, with a fascinating timeline and level of suspense that keeps you guessing throughout' Reader review ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐

Critics Review

PRAISE FOR IF EVER I FALL
‘The characters are vivid and believable and this makes the reader lose themselves in the story, experiencing a range of emotions. You will need plenty of tissues for this heart-breaking tale of love, grief and devotion’ THE SUN
‘A wonderfully told tale of devastation, grief and ultimately hope, with a narrative that grips from the start and doesn’t let go until the final page.’
KATHRYN HUGHES, bestselling author of THE LETTER and THE SECRET
'A wonderful trip-hopping path through family relationships, death and bereavement that keeps you guessing to the turn of the last page. S.D. Robertson writes with brave assurance that makes the story a must read and marks him as an author to follow.'
STEWART FOSTER, Winner of Sainsbury’s Children’s Book of the Year and Observer debut author of 2014.
‘When I wasn't actually reading this book, I found myself thinking constantly about it. Real. Emotional. Powerful. A must-read for anyone who loves to lose themselves completely in a book.’ CLAUDIA CARROLL
PRAISE FOR S .D. ROBERTSON
‘Heart-achingly good, with laugh-out-loud moments’ THE SUN
‘One of those unique books that once read will truly stay with you for a lifetime.’ Compellingreads.co.uk
‘A sad, sweet, thought-provoking tale about the love and the bond between parents and children.’ Lovereading.co.uk
‘A strong contender for my favourite book of the year … Emotional, heart-warming, tragic, bittersweet, charming and very, very satisfying.’ Silver Thistle book blog
‘A beautiful well written heart-rending story about a father’s love for his daughter.’ ireadnovels
‘A tender, warm, and wonderfully written novel.’ Becca’s Books
‘An engaging, heartfelt and stunning read.’ A Spoonful of Happy Endings
Author S.D. Robertson
Narrator Emma Gregory, Leighton Pugh
Duration 10 hours and 34 minutes
Release Date
ISBN 9780008174729
Format x-book®
Publisher HarperCollins Publishers
Genre Contemporary lifestyle fiction, Contemporary romance, Family life fiction, Modern and contemporary fiction, Narrative theme: Death, grief, loss, Narrative theme: Love and relationships
Availability AU, GB, IE, US

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