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If I Can’t Have You

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'I implore you to read (or listen to) it' - Marian Keyes, author of Again, Rachel

An all-consuming story of loneliness, obsession and how far we go for the ones we love, If I Can't Have You is the debut novel by Charlotte Levin.

After fleeing Manchester for London, Constance Little attempts to put past tragedies behind her and make a fresh start. When she embarks on a relationship with the new doctor at the medical practice where she works, she’s convinced she’s finally found the love and security she craves.

Then he ends it.

But if life has taught her anything, it’s that if you love someone, you should never let them go.

That's why for Constance Little, her obsession is only just beginning . . .

'Exceptionally raw and visceral and painfully funny' – Emma Flint, author of Little Deaths

'Darkly comic and beautifully written’ – Woman

‘Blackly comic, heartrendingly sad’ – Best

'Compulsively readable and darkly funny’ – Laura Marshall, author of Friend Request

'One of the best books I’ve ever read' – Ruth Jones, author of Love Untold

Critics Review

I IMPLORE you to read (or listen to) it. It's SO many things - dark, sweet, odd, moving, credible, tender, BEAUTIFULLY written & at times funny
Marian Keyes, author of Again, Rachel
So beautifully written, such a devastatingly compelling story. I can honestly say it’s one of the best books I’ve ever read - it is without shadow of a doubt, EASILY up there with The Girl on the Train and Eleanor Oliphant
Ruth Jones
This is superb. The main character Constance is brilliantly flawed and so compassionately drawn - it’s raw and compulsive and disturbing and very well done indeed
Harriet Tyce, author of Richard & Judy Book Club pick Blood Orange
An exceptionally raw and visceral and painfully funny novel. Charlotte Levin writes so well and so powerfully about loneliness, longing, love and loss that Constance will stay with me for a long time
Emma Flint, Women's Prize longlisted author of Little Deaths
A blackly comic but heartfelt story of love and loneliness, with an endearing and damaged heroine
Sunday Mirror
A darkly comic and beautifully written debut novel
Woman
Blackly comic, heartrendingly sad . . . a brilliant debut novel
Best
Compulsively readable and darkly funny with pin-sharp characterization. Love love loved it
Laura Marshall, Sunday Times bestselling author of The Friend Request
Brilliant. A perfect and completely terrifying depiction of heartbreak and obsession
Sarah Powell, presenter, founder of ‘Celebrate Yourself’ and Red Magazine columnist

User Reviews

Book 5.0
Narration 5.0
Author Charlotte Levin
Narrator Chloe Massey
Duration 10 hours and 42 minutes
Release Date
ISBN 9781529032413
Format x-book®
Publisher Pan Macmillan
Genre Contemporary romance, Family life fiction, Narrative theme: Death, grief, loss, Psychological thriller
Availability AU, GB, IE, US
Rating
5.0 (1 review)
Narration
5.0 (1 review)

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