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If I Disappear

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What to expect

'A slick, smart thriller you don't want to miss'
Samantha Downing, author of My Lovely Wife

'Every page is packed with feral tension'
Stephanie Wrobel, author of The Recovery of Rose Gold

'An ending you won't see coming'
Louise O'Neill, author of After the Silence

'Chilling'
Bella
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Sera loves true crime podcasts. The mysteries become an unlikely comfort for her, and then an obsession.

So when Rachel, her favourite podcast host, goes missing from a small rural town in Northern California, Sera decides to act. She heads to the isolated ranch where Rachel disappeared, determined to discover what's happened to her.

But the more Sera digs into this unfamiliar world, the more off things start to feel.

Because Rachel is not the first woman to vanish from the ranch, and she won't be the last . . .

Rachel did try to warn her.
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A chilling and utterly addictive psychological thriller that will hook you from the first page and keep you up all night . . .

'DELICIOUSLY EERIE' PopSugar

'MUST READ' New York Post

'COMPULSIVE, ATMOSPHERIC' Katherine St. John

'SPELLBINDING' Kathleen Barber

'WILD, THRILLING, FAST-PACED' Hello Giggles

'SLEEK, EXCITING AND TWISTY' Rene Denfield

'DISQUIETING AND DISTINCTLY CREEPY' Kirkus

'A PROPULSIVE THRILL RIDE' Lisa Unger

'CLEVER, SINISTER' Kimberley Belle

'GENUINELY SCARY' Andrea Bartz

Critics Review

Must-read. Shades of I'll Be Gone in the Dark, the true-crime bestseller by the late Michelle McNamara
New York Post
A skillful dissection of true-crime podcast culture and those obsessed with it, this new novel has more twists and fakeouts than an episode of Serial... If I Disappear throws into sharp relief how desensitized we can become when we treat real life like a game
Rolling Stone
Chilling
Bella
Blending the true crime compulsion of Michelle McNamara's I'll Be Gone in the Dark with the immersive creepy-craziness of Gillian Flynn's Sharp Objects, Brazier creates a heady, pitch-dark cocktail all her own'
Publisher's Weekly
This twisted and riveting thriller is one that will keep you up late at night with suspense
CNN
A unique novel . . . The writing is lean, the story is fascinating, and you won't guess where this one is going. A slick, smart thriller you don't want to miss
Samantha Downing, the Sunday Times bestselling author of My Lovely Wife
A fascinating, twisty, beautifully written tale with an unforgettable premise and an ending you won't see coming
Louise O'Neill, author of Asking For It
I got serious Get Out vibes from this book . . . From ceilings crawling with cats to mannequin-filled dining rooms to hordes of misshapen dogs, If I Disappear is a gripping house of horrors you're powerless to escape. Every page is packed with feral tension. Fans of true crime podcasts will love the chilling tale Brazier has woven. I won't sleep for days
Stephanie Wrobel, author of The Recovery of Rose Gold
Deliciously eerie
Popsugar
A Gone Girl story in more ways than one . . . Podcast clues abound for Sera, and the breathless reader
Peterborough Telegraph
Fans of true crime will devour this mystery
E! Online
A wild, thrilling, fast-paced ride from start to finish
Hello Giggles
A disquieting and distinctly creepy debut
Kirkus
Suspicions swirl in this propulsive debut; a clever, sinister read with a surprising sting in the tail
Kimberly Belle, author of Dear Wife
Compulsive, atmospheric . . . kept me guessing until the very end. Told in a clean, sharp style reminiscent of Ruth Ware, this sinister take on the true crime media phenomenon is sure to send chills up your spine!
Katherine St. John, author of The Lion's Den
Sleek, exciting, and twisty . . . If I Disappear explores what happens when a woman takes a disappearance into her own hands. A fun, fast-paced ride
Rene Denfeld, author of The Butterfly Girl
A spellbinding tale of obsession and isolation, and the darkness that can unspool when the two intertwine. Thick with atmosphere and dripping with tension, this is a book you'll want to devour in one sitting - if you dare
Kathleen Barber, author of Follow Me
Who doesn't love a great true crime podcast? But Sera Fleece, the smart, darkly funny, adrift young woman at the heart of this twisty novel, has veered into obsession. If I Disappear is a clever, propulsive thrill ride, full of surprises right through to the firecracker ending. Don't miss Eliza Jane Brazier's exciting debut
Lisa Unger, author of The Stranger Inside
Subtle, surprising, and genuinely scary, If I Disappear is so much more than a thriller; it's an unflinching exploration of our obsession with true crime and the darkness marbling our psyches. With sinewy prose and nuanced observations about the female experience, this debut marks a ferocious new voice in psychological suspense. I could not have loved this book more, and I can't wait to read more from Eliza Jane Brazier
Andrea Bartz, author of The Herd
Author Eliza Jane Brazier
Narrator Kristen Sieh
Duration 9 hours and 7 minutes
Release Date
ISBN 9781405547574
Format Audiobook
Publisher Little, Brown Book Group
Genre Psychological thriller, Thriller / suspense fiction
Availability AU, GB, IE

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