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If You Could See Me Now

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What to expect

A powerful story about friendship, trust, and taking control of your life while not being afraid to stand out, by the bestselling author of A Single Act of Kindness. Perfect for fans of Shari Low, Milly Johnson and Colleen Hoover.

How far would you go for a perfect life?

Back in her troubled school days, kind-hearted Violet always dreamed of a life where she was happy. Now it feels like she’s just about getting there. She has her dream job working with books, and she’s living with her handsome boyfriend, Lenny.

But when her relationship with Lenny falls to pieces and he moves out, Violet, hurt and lonely, decides it’s time to really take her happiness in hand. With her new flatmate Bella’s help, she changes her image and takes control at work, ready to show the world that she doesn’t need Lenny, ready to live her best life!

Then she meets magnetic author Casey, she begins to wonder if all she needed all along was a makeover. Lenny will rue the day he lost her!

But – with Bella – all is not as it seems. And Violet too has a secret, one that dates right back to her childhood, which could change everything…

Readers love If You Could See Me Now:

Oh how I enjoyed losing myself in this book!… A story about one woman struggling with her own identity, it perfectly combines elements of suspense, romance and mystery. A gripping and powerful page-turner. Don’t miss it!’ Hazel Prior

‘Knocks you out of your shoes!’ Reader Review ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐

‘I’m speechless.’ Reader Review ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐

‘This one blew me away!’ Reader Review ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐

‘I think it will stay with me forever.’ Reader Review ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐

‘One of my books of the year, 10* if I could.’ Reader Review ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐

‘The twists and turns lead to an astounding conclusion.’ Reader Review ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐

‘Should be required reading!’ Reader Review ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐

‘I’ve also had friend similar to Bella and the twist completely threw me.’ Reader Review ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐

Praise for Samantha Tonge:

LOVED it!! I didn’t want to put it down, I didn’t want it to finish… Such an honest and heart-tugging read, but so positively and heart-warmingly told, with so many real and believable people. Every sentence was needed and every loose end tied up.’ Reader Review ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐

Oh what a joy, what a delight. Samantha's books and characters have a habit of wrapping themselves around you like old friends… There’s a life-affirming thread of getting that balance in life, not letting things get on top of us or holding us back…. Brilliant, stunning… One to leave you with a big smile.’ Reader Review ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐

This book just pulled me in. The story pulled at my heart as I read on and on and on. I couldn’t stop reading as I had to know what the ending was going to be!I’m still thinking about this story… A beautiful story about friendship that I highly recommend.’ Goodreads reviewer ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐

WOW! Will keep readers flicking page after page. I loved the story… The author once again captures real life dramas… Takes you on a journey… Fabulous!’ Goodreads reviewer ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐

Previously published as Knowing You.

Author Samantha Tonge
Narrator Anna Spearpoint
Duration 7 hours and 25 minutes
Release Date
ISBN 9781836337249
Format x-book®
Publisher Boldwood Books
Genre Contemporary lifestyle fiction, Contemporary romance, Family life fiction, Modern and contemporary fiction, Narrative theme: Coming of age, Narrative theme: Identity / belonging, Narrative theme: Interior life, Narrative theme: Love and relationships
Availability AU, GB, IE, US

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