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'A remarkable story, a real page-turner' JOE DUFFY

'Powerfully written ... a gripping narrative' FINTAN O'TOOLE

The remarkable story of one man's journey from the edge of death to the heart of a hidden past.

Adopted at age three, Paul Cullen always felt like an outsider. After a near-fatal fall from Germany's highest peak in 2017 left him broken - physically and emotionally - he faced a personal reckoning. As he lay injured on the mountain, he knew that if he survived, he could no longer avoid the questions that had haunted him since childhood.

What happened in those missing early years? Who cared for him before his adoption? And why was it so hard to find the truth?

Outsider follows Paul's search for answers, from a mother and baby home in 1960s London to a suburban estate in 1970s Dublin, in a house lit with love but shadowed by a darker truth. As his body heals, he pieces together the fragments of his identity, confronting the silence of a closed adoption system and the emotional legacy of a hidden past.

Courageous and deeply personal, Outsider is a powerful story of survival, belonging and the enduring human need to know where we come from.

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Written with extraordinary verbal and emotional precision, Outsider is a potent reminder that in Ireland the personal and the public are inextricably intertwined. In telling his own story of adoption, loss and discovery Paul Cullen also tells the inner history of a society in which a child like him could be labelled as illegitimate. While the truths of the past can never be fully revealed, the truthfulness of Cullen's account shines through his gripping narrative
Fintan O'Toole
Paul Cullen's Outsider is a beautifully written story of gradual discovery about his origins before his adoption, particularly the crucial early years of his life, and the people who played the most important part in them. Having looked at all the evidence, he calmly and rationally concludes that his was a forced adoption, contrary to the findings of the deeply flawed Mother and Baby Homes report.
This book is a very important contribution to the growing literature on Ireland's unholy alliance between church and state to interfere in fundamental relationships with life-changing effects on those involved.
Catriona Crowe
This true story reads like a thriller, with all the twists turns and ultimate redemption of a remarkable story, a real page turner
Joe Duffy

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