Reclaiming My Decade Lost in Scientology

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What to expect

In Reclaiming My Decade Lost in Scientology, Sands Hall chronicles her slow yet willing absorption into the Church of Scientology. Her time in the Church, the 1980s, includes the secretive illness and death of its founder, L. Ron Hubbard, and the ascension of David Miscavige. Hall compellingly reveals what drew her into the religion―what she found intriguing and useful―and how she came to confront its darker sides.

As a young woman from a literary family striving to forge her own way as an artist, Hall ricochets between the worlds of Shakespeare, avant-garde theater, and soap opera, until her brilliant elder brother, playwright Oakley Hall III, falls from a bridge and suffers permanent brain damage. In the secluded canyons of Hollywood, she finds herself increasingly drawn toward the certainty that Scientology appears to offer.

In this candid and nuanced memoir, Hall recounts her spiritual and artistic journey with a visceral affection for language, delighting in the way words can create a shared world. However, as Hall begins to grasp how purposefully Hubbard has created the unique language of Scientology―in the process isolating and indoctrinating its practitioners―she confronts how language can also be used as a tool of authoritarianism.

Hall is a captivating guide, and Reclaiming My Decade Lost in Scientology explores how she has found meaning and purpose within that decade that for so long she thought of as lost; how she has faced the “flunk” represented by those years, and has embraced a way to “start” anew.

Critics Review

  • “It is no surprise when, after a few encounters with Scientology…Hall begins to feel its pull. And if it is Scientology’s offer of a life with meaning that hauls her in… it is its approach to meaning that keeps her.”

    Times Literary Supplement
  • “Some of the most penetrating, illuminating prose about how an educated and skeptical person could get so deeply into, and then struggle to escape, what everyone around her warned was a dangerous cult.”

    Underground Bunker
  • “A beautiful memoir…What sets this account apart from so many recent ‘leaving Scientology’ narratives is that the author has no ax to grind…An early candidate for memoir of the year, this is a thrilling story of one woman’s search for truth and her place in the world.”

    Library Journal (starred review)
  • “[An] impassioned, wonderfully constructed memoir…Hall reflects with brutal honesty on her decisions throughout this meticulously crafted book, which explores her negative experiences with Scientology and how her desire to please led her to believe in the unbelievable.”

    Publishers Weekly (starred review)
  • An intriguing, beautifully written memoir…She toggles between her family and the church, digging deeply into the dynamics of power and control, love and compassion, before coming to a surprising resolution.”

    Literary Hub
  • “A memoir of a life filled with joy and tragedy, and readers will appreciate the author’s candor.”

    Booklist

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