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The Night I Killed Him

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The world of beloved influencer, Gemma Fitzgerald, seems ready to implode when the body of her brother, Max – who disappeared 18 years earlier – is washed up on a beach. Everyone thought Max had taken his own life the night of his twenty-first birthday party, but Gemma knows the truth – she is responsible for Max’s disappearance.

With the police bearing down from one side, and her glamorous lifestyle hanging by a thread, it seems the devastating truth is about to destroy Gemma’s life and take her away from her precious little boy.

Gemma has created a dazzling world in trying to forget that fateful night. What if it’s all been a lie?

‘A fresh, assured voice in Irish crime writing’ Andrea Mara

‘Absolutely riveting and eminently readable.’ Liz Nugent

‘A writer at the top of her game … I could not look away until the shocking end.’ Edel Coffey

‘Great writing, gorgeous characterisation and such a plot! I was so deliciously engrossed.’ Marian Keyes

‘I devoured it. So tightly plotted with great characters … it had me on tenterhooks throughout and my nerves were shot.’ Patricia Gibney

‘A compulsive heart-stopping read, that makes you forget to breathe! I couldn't turn the pages fast enough … a gripping, tense, bone chiller of a book that you won't forget.’ Sam Blake

‘A superbly crafted story - a gripping thriller, but also a sensitive and insightful portrayal of guilt and grief. It's both beautifully written and nerve-shreddingly tense. Completely compelling - you won't want to put it down.' Jane Casey

© Gill Perdue 2025 (P) Penguin Audio 2025

Critics Review

Absolutely riveting, entertaining and eminently readable.
Liz Nugent
Utterly UTTERLY magnificent! Great writing, gorgeous characterisation and such a plot – the pleasure it gave me! I was so deliciously engrossed
Marian Keyes
A contemporary white-knuckle ride that I could not look away from until the shocking end. My nerves were shredded! It's a brilliant modern psychological thriller with shades of Daphne Du Maurier and Nancy Price. I loved this book
Edel Coffey
This is a sharply engaging and propulsive crime drama, but what really gripped me was the depth of its characters and their stories. Woven into its deftly crafted plot are moving and poignant tales of love, loss, betrayal and redemption. A truly compelling read
Jake Arnott
An all too believable look behind the glossy world of the social media influencer in a pitch perfect south Dublin setting . . . both a satisfying mystery and a new twist on the traditional police duo
Sinéad Crowley
So tightly plotted with great characters, even one I myself wanted to kill! It had me on tenterhooks throughout and my nerves were shot
Patricia Gibney
Gill Perdue has a real way of seeing into people's minds and hearts, and she's not afraid of the dark
Kitty Murphy
A twisty, intriguing, clever crime thriller . . . It’s beautifully written, the author’s empathy shining through her characters and her words
Michelle McDonagh
A dark unsettling mystery, tackling themes of abuse and murder but elevated by the depth of female friendship, old and new. Gill Perdue's ability to capture relationship dynamics is rivalled only by her skill at creating nail-biting tension. Gripping . . . a must-read!
Amy Jordan
A compulsive heart-stopping read that makes you forget to breathe! I couldn't turn the pages fast enough – a superb, a gripping, tense, bone chiller of a book that you won't forget
Sam Blake
Author Gill Perdue
Narrator Martha Breen, Aisling Kearns, Heather O’Sullivan, Rosemary O'Dowd
Duration 10 hours and 49 minutes
Release Date
ISBN 9781405980586
Format Audiobook
Publisher Penguin Books Ltd
Genre Crime and mystery fiction, Thriller / suspense fiction
Availability AU, GB, IE

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