When I Kill You
- Author B A Paris
- Narrator Georgia Maguire
- Publisher HarperCollins Publishers
- Publish Date 12 March 2026
- Run Time 8 hours and 11 minutes
- Format x-book®
- Genre Crime and mystery fiction, Family life fiction, Modern and contemporary fiction, Narrative theme: Death, grief, loss, Narrative theme: Love and relationships, Psychological thriller.
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What to expect
‘The challenge is to separate dangerous reality from paranoia in this unsettling, pulse-racing tale’ Louise Candlish
*****
Who is watching Nell Masters?
Nell Masters is certain someone is following her. The hairs on the back of her neck rise when she travels to and from work, there are silent calls to her office, and a huge bouquet of flowers arrives without a card. And Nell has a reason to be looking over her shoulder, because she has a secret that she’s hiding from everyone in her life, including her new partner, Alex. But Alex also has secrets of his own.
Fourteen years earlier, when Nell went by the name Elle Nugent, she witnessed a student, Bryony Sanders, getting into a stranger’s car. When Bryony was found murdered, Elle became obsessed with finding the person responsible. She was convinced she knew who it was and her fixation with Brett Parker, the man she accused, led her down a dangerous path …
Now, Nell tries to convince herself that this unnerving feeling of being watched is all in her mind. Has someone from her past discovered her new identity? Has the stalker become the stalked? Or is there something even more deadly at play?
*****
Praise for B A Paris:
'A mesmeric, tense and twisting nightmare. Suffocating, controlled and hugely entertaining' Chris Whitaker
'A rollercoaster ride, with plenty of twists' Observer
'B A Paris is a mistress at weaving family with fear, suspense and subterfuge' Jane Corry
‘A powerful, beautifully crafted story that ratchets up the tension with every page and packs a huge emotional punch’ T. M. Logan
'Expertly plotted and compellingly told … I raced through it' Harriet Tyce
'Packed with tension and nail-bitingly real, I couldn't put it down!' Lauren North
*****
Readers give WHEN I KILL YOU five stars!
'Dark, twisty and psychologically sharp, this was a real page-turner'
'The best B A Paris book since Behind Closed Doors'
'Kept me up all night … I couldn't put it down'
'A totally unpredictable rollercoaster … terrifyingly real'
'Every book I read of B A Paris she just seems to get better and better!'
'I was hooked from the start and couldn't function until I got to the end!'
'Creepy, full of twists and so well-written … B A Paris is a fabulous author but this is one of the best'
'A tense, gripping thriller that’s easy to get into and hard to put down'
Critics Review
‘My heart was pounding. If you like fast and frantic stories, you’ll love this’ The Sun
n‘A propulsive and deliciously dark page-turner. Perfectly paced and tightly plotted’ Lucy Clarke
n'Elegant, taut, ingeniously plotted and extremely addictive. Superb!' Will Dean
n‘Twists our expectations of the entire psychological thriller genre’ Guardian
n‘The tension builds almost unbearably’ Good Housekeeping
n‘This outstanding debut novel will leave you breathless’ Bella
n‘Behind Closed Doors is both unsettling and addictive, as I raced through the pages to find out Grace’s fate. A chilling thriller that will keep you reading long into the night’ Mary Kubica
n‘Brilliant, chilling, scary and unputdownable’ Lesley Pearse
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