God Is An Octopus

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Bloomsbury presents God Is An Octopus by Ben Goldsmith, read by Simon Bubb.

'Intensely readable, poetic, truthful, wise and wonderful.' STEPHEN FRY
'An extraordinary book.' SUNDAY TIMES

Struggling to comprehend the shocking death of his teenage daughter, Ben Goldsmith finds solace in nature by immersing himself in plans to rewild his farm.

In July 2019, Ben Goldsmith lost his fifteen-year-old daughter, Iris, in an accident on their family farm in Somerset. Iris’s death left her family reeling.

Grasping for answers, Ben threw himself into searching for some ongoing trace of his beloved child, exploring ideas that until then had seemed too abstract to mean much to him. Missing his daughter terribly and struggling to imagine how he would face the rest of his life in the shadow of this loss, Ben found solace in nature, the object of a lifelong fascination. As Ben set about rewilding his farm, nature became a vital source of meaning and hope.

This book is the story of a year of soul-searching that followed a terrible loss. In an instant, Ben’s world had turned dark. Yet, unbelievably to him, the seasons kept on turning, and as he immersed himself in the dramatic restoration of nature in the place where it happened, he found healing.

In God is an Octopus, Ben tells a powerful, immersive and inspiring story of finding comfort and strength in nature after suffering loss and despair.

Critics Review

From the deepest sorrow, the highest hope. Intensely readable, poetic, truthful, wise and wonderful, this will live with me for a very long time.
Stephen Fry
An event of unimaginable trauma is transformed into a message of beauty and optimism through Ben’s passion for nature, which acts as his nurse, teacher and redeemer.
Joanna Lumley
Stunningly beautiful, immensely sad, immensely uplifting, this is a book of grief and joy and wonder and renewal.
George Monbiot
An extraordinarily powerful and moving journey through the darkest of griefs to the enduring love, hope and renewal of the natural world. A book of universal wisdom.
Benedict Cumberbatch
A brilliant new book… heartbreaking.
David Walliams
Beautiful and deeply moving, this will resonate with and inspire so many people.
Isabella Tree
Extraordinary.
The Daily Mail
Goldsmith has written an extraordinary book, God is an Octopus, about his journey through grief and his exploration of the afterlife.
The Sunday Times
Ben chronicles the unfathomable tragedy of his daughter’s death with the profound love and compassion of a bereft parent.
Richard E. Grant
An ambitious blend of memoir, nature diary and search for the meaning of life, the universe and everything ... [God is an Octopus] powerfully communicates the capacity of nature to rebound.
The Times
Some of the finest writing about nature you will find anywhere.
The Daily Mail
[Ben] does a quite astonishing job… finding incredible meaning in Iris’s short life and the connection with nature he experienced after her sudden death.
The Telegraph
This book is as beautiful as it is painful to read ... The emotional depth of God is an Octopus makes it a deeply moving and thought-provoking read.
The London Standard, Greatest reads of 2024
A compelling journey from the very heart of loss to the sanctuary and hope that only the natural world provides – emotive, raw and captivating.
Benedict Macdonald, Winner of the Wainwright Prize for Global Conservation
A heartbreaking yet ultimately inspiring memoir of the personal spiritual odyssey.
The Daily Mail
A tribute not just to a lost child but also to nature’s regenerative power.
The Observer
A meandering pathway through the thickets of grief ... this is a devastating book, unflinching, but written with lyricism.
The Daily Telegraph
Simply the most powerful and profound words I’ve ever read on grief... I clung to every sentence like a limpet hoping that time would slow down so I could digest and remember every word.
Georgia Toffolo
Remarkable memoir… This book will bring comfort and hope to anyone experiencing grief.
The Guardian
A heartbreaking book, but also an uplifting book which solaces the heart.
Tom Stoppard
[A] moving account of how reconnecting with nature helped [Goldsmith] rebuild a capacity for joy.
The Guardian, Saturday magazine
Poignant and very moving … a compelling piece of writing.
BBC Countryfile
[Goldsmith’s] personal experiences and thoughts feel vividly real to the reader ... An extraordinarily powerful, optimistic and wise read.
House & Garden
[An] engaging book, part memoir, part ecological tract
Country & Town House
In this very moving memoir, the leading rewilder and green investor bares his soul to let us into the darkest moments of his most private grief … His themes of loss, love and recovery are universal, the story beautifully told.
BBC Countryfile
A very moving book … [It] tore at my heart, as it will yours, but it’ll also make you feel better and more hopeful.
Bird Watching
[A] haunting meditation on grief and nature.
The Times
This beautiful book is an unflinching account of grief, with love and hope at its heart.
The Daily Mail

User Reviews

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Nearly lost me near the start as his world is so different. Very very upper class / privilege. But once he got to the medium, and then the rewinding bits, I was hooked.
The narration I did feel a bit devoid of emotion and I had to listen to it on 1.5 speed.
li22ybeth 19/10/2025

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