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Nic Sheff was drunk for the first time at age eleven. In the years that followed, he regularly smoked pot, did cocaine and ecstasy, and developed addictions to crystal meth and heroin. Even so, he felt like he would always be able to quit and put his life together whenever he needed to. It took a violent relapse one summer in California to convince him otherwise.

In writing that is raw and honest, Nic spares no detail in telling us the compelling, heartbreaking, and true story of his relapse and the road to recovery. As we watch Nic plunge into the mental and physical depths of drug addiction, he paints a picture of a person at odds with his past, with his family, with his substances, and with himself. It’s a harrowing portrait, but not one without hope.

Critics Review

“Impossible to put down”

Chicago Tribune

“Nic Sheff's wrenching tale is told with electrifying honesty and insight.”

Armistead Maupin, author of The Night Listener and Michael Tolliver Lives

“Paul Michael Garcia is the perfect choice for narrator; his stern and entirely believable voice captures the desolation in Sheff's tale. His reading is wonderfully underplayed, and necessarily so. Garcia becomes Sheff, offering a gritty and raw performance that demonstrates just how dire the circumstances surrounding Sheff's existence really were.”

Publishers Weekly

“Nic Sheff's powerful memoir of drug abuse and alcohol addiction is written in a brutally honest style that makes it difficult for anyone else to narrate. Happily, narrator Paul Michael Garcia delivers a strong and commanding reading that perfectly expresses the rawness of Sheff's most personal recollections…Endlessly memorable, Sheff's memoir is brought to life in a reading that captures the essence of his downfall.”

AudioFile
Author Nic Sheff
Narrator Richard Powers
Duration 12 hours and 17 minutes
Release Date
ISBN 9781624608285
Format Audiobook
Publisher Blackstone Publishing
Genre Children’s / Teenage general interest: Biography and autobiography, Children’s / Teenage personal and social topics: Drugs and addiction, Memoirs
Availability AU, GB, IE, US

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