You Will Not Have My Hate

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THE INTERNATIONAL BESTSELLER

What matters most in life? How do you build a happy life when terrible things happen? What is left behind when you lose the person you love the most?

One night last winter, Antoine Leiris was at home looking after his son while his wife, Hélène, was at a concert with friends. Suddenly he started receiving text messages asking if he was ok. Turning on the TV, Antoine watched the terrorist attacks in Paris unfolding around him and tried to call Hélène. She didn’t answer. That night Hélène was killed, along with 88 other people, at the Bataclan Theatre.

Three days later, Antoine wrote an open letter to his wife’s killers on Facebook. He refused to be cowed or to let his 17-month-old son’s life be defined by their acts. ‘For as long as he lives, this little boy will insult you with his happiness and freedom,’ he wrote. Instantly, that short post caught fire and was shared thousands of times around the world.

You Will Not Have My Hate is an extraordinary and heartbreaking memoir about how Antoine, and his baby son Melvil, endured after Hélène’s murder. With courage, moral acuity, and absolute emotional honesty, he finds a way to answer the question, how can I go on? This is the rare and unforgettable testimony of a survivor, and a universal message of hope and resilience. This book is a guiding star for us all in perilous times.

Critics Review

A blazingly beautiful memoir… A glimmer of hope in the dark.

Observer, Books of the Year

A beacon of hope in a dark world

The Pool

An astonishing feat… I defy anyone not to shed tears at least once when reading this book.

Sunday Times

A book of exceptional grace…the most extraordinary account of an emotional journey

Observer

An extraordinary read, honest, intimate and lightly poetic. It is a testament of love, loss and grief and also the often untold story of those who are left behind and must find a way to go on

Irish Independent

A book for our times

Guardian, Books of the Year

Defiant and powerful…Leiris shows us, poignantly and movingly, how the absence of Helene opens up for him and his son.

The Times

Incredible, informative, very powerful… Beautifully written… I felt so touched by it and changed by it, so I thank you for writing it. I hope it finds a huge audience. I can’t recommend it highly enough… A beautiful piece of work

Radio 2 Arts Show

One of the most enduring and memorable messages after the deadly attack on Paris’s Bataclan theater was written by journalist Antoine Leiris. This bracing, courageous, and utterly beautiful book shows us that he had much more to say

Elle.com

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